What the journey has taught me.
I’ve decided. No matter what happens in terms of the STA WTI results (which are edging ever closer), I know I’m going to be on the road, doing my thing. And I can’t wait. This whole WTI application process has really altered how I think and feel about travel. Today, I was feeling a little emotional :
Before this opportunity arose, I never thought I would be a blogger. Or a part of the twitter movement. It all seemed a bit narcissistic to me. I tend to be pretty self-deprecating, due to an average-female level of self-esteem and my terrible habit of criticising myself to the extreme. Why on earth would I put myself out there to humiliate myself in front of a crowd of internet users? Or worse, what if no-one was even interested? The thought of shameless self-promotion made me feel slightly queasy, but if I wanted to show the folks at STA what I was capable of, I had to suck it up. So here I am. Talking to YOU. Whoever you may be. It’s kinda fun!
I sent my WTI application in because I couldn’t bear not to give it a try. But I genuinely never expected to get this far. So all I would say to people is; have faith in yourself. I know I’m right for this job. I’ve never felt more confident about anything in my life. You have to be in it to win it. A radical change from the old me, whose attitude tended to be “What’s the point, I’ll never get it.” Finding that elusive quality, self-belief, is the only way to survive such an intensely emotional competition.
After: Determined to make the most of life – and ridiculously excited!
Before this whole process, I of COURSE knew I wanted to travel. My imminent RTW trip isn’t a back-up plan due to the credit crunch, or something I’ve jumped to on a whim. I’m not doing it because that’s what the cool kids do. I have been waiting for this moment since I was fourteen. With mere weeks until I finish university forever, I am on the cusp of the most exciting period of my life. What the STA WTI has taught me is to be patient, and accept that the future is unknown. If I become one of the chosen ones, I will probably explode with excitement. If I don’t, I refuse to shy away from future challenges. After all;